Push me.

I'm exhausted.
And self loathing.
For many reasons.
LOLNOTSAYINGTHEM.

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This water has never tasted so good.

So Joss came out and told her fwiend Quinnie about it. Now Joss is going to regret it. I THINK. But we'll have to see how the story plays out. I however don't think Joss is going to tell Minnie, cause that will RUIN everything.

GRRR.

I cannot fucking stand it anymore.

Check private blog for more.

Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?

I sit here at 1:00 am tearing through memories.

"I've come to collect the rent. I cannot pay the rent. Why can't you pay the rent? I haven't any money. I Shall pay the rent. CURSES. Saved"

That was what my Nana would do to make me laugh. Today while watching TLC, I saw a familiar face. I called to my mother, pausing the on demand show. I said "Do I know that woman?" And I do. She's one of my uncle's best friend and she's a published author. Her name is Jessica Pallingston, and she wrote a book entitled "Lipstick". So now, I want that book because apparently my grandmother contributed a lot to the making of it, and inside the book shes referred to as "Auntie Mary" or simply "Mary Blake".

The Klondike Bars.
Bedbugs.
A you're adorable...


Why do I get like this? Why? What possesses me? I want so badly for something to happen. Some magical slip up where suddenly I'm eight years old, its the middle of July. I'd lay out on the porch under the stars and watch the fireworks engulf the sky. I'd ask Nana what happens when we die. She told me that we all go back to the Lord. I asked if I would get in. She said there was no doubt in her mind.

Seven years later, I wonder if she could've been wrong.

Doing more drugs on more dashboards.

So today I was getting ready to go out. When I came across my scarf with skulls on it.










It made me really happy.

Gay Rights <3

1. Being Gay Is Not Natural

And real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning, tattoos, piercings and silicon breasts...

2. Gay Marriage Will Encourage People To Be Gay

In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall

3. Legalizing Gay Marriage Will Open The Door To All Kinds Of Crazy Behavior

People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog haslegal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next.

4. Straight Marriage Has Been Around A Long Time And Hasn't Changed At All

Hence why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight Marriage Will Be Less Meaningful If Gay Marriage Were Allowed

And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed.

6. Straight Marriages Are Valid Because They Produce Children

So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our population isn't out of control, our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously Gay Parents Will Raise Gay Children

Since, of course, straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay Marriage Is Not Supported By Religion

In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children Can Never Succeed Without A Male And A Female Role Model

Which is exactly why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay Marriage Will Change The Foundation Of Society; We Could Never Adapt To New Social Norms

Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.Repost This If You Think LOVE Makes A Marriage!Enough said.


We're here, we're queer--LET US GET MARRIED!

See to this some higher plan.

I hate the chorus' new songs.
Except for Flander's Fields.

Every line stabbing me in a different spot...
I could feel myself shaking...
I thought I was going to cry, throw up, and kill someone all at the same time.
Even during Buttercup for Christ's sake...
Why can't we sing some ridiculous song nobody has ever heard of?
No.
Instead let's sing Lynn song's that are going to make her palms sweat and not be able to look anyone in the eye.

Sounds like a cool idea.

I cannot do drama next year. Legit. Its like...its SO much fun and I really love it...but...I'm not...willing to work that hard for a small gain. And plus, Lily will be a bit older and demand more attention. Speaking of her, she's coming over tomorrow and I get to babysit. Thank god. I mean, Nan will own my soul from 2:30ish to 5:30ish...but then I get to go play with Lily. Holding a baby is the most calming experince in the entire world. To have this little helpless, bundle of joy just laying in your arms. Not thinking of anything, except when they aren't eating, they want to sleep. She is so adorable and one of the only things keeping me thinking straight right now.

I think that right now I'm just a giant ball of confusion. I just would like to sleep for a few days...or a year...

Then wake up to find that my life was going swimmingly once I had someone else run it.
Its funny I guess. I spend my whole life longing for freedom and I just want to be...selfish. Just once... But then I try and I end up feeling like shit.

Isn't that a bit messed up?

Feck you.

Ugh.
Just seriously. I'm sick of all the drama. Everything I say is wrong. Like honestly. You don't have to argue with everything. I'm trying to help you. But no. Your just far too concerned with whether or not you're going to be able to use those condoms in your sock drawer.

And a job should be a top on your priority list...

At least last night was some decent fun. And you know something? That's good. I'm proud of myself. I did what I wanted. Even if it was a dare, I am happy for it.


Its been the LONGEST 18 days of my entire life. And you know something? Its not good. I just found something else out. Its like...what's even the point? We get to be 50, and then our health crashes down upon us. We die.

Poor Molly, so sick. I feel so bad :(

So many things unclear....so many things unknown.

Until next time when I go crazy <3

Serves you right for kissing little girls.

I cannot believe that its been four months since we started school. I mean; the time seems to be flowing extrememly slow, but now realizing its been four months...Wow, its going fast. I thank whatever is up there for allowing me to still only be a sophmore. Seriously. I do not think I could handle being a junior or senior and going through all the stress of college searching, etc, etc. Yes, I have MCAS this year, which don't get me wrong, it sucks. But its far better then college searches.

I honestly feel so relaxed lately. I spend a lot of time laying about, listening to my iPod. Which is probably not the healthiest idea, but hey. Its my life right?

And I want to thank Ms. Herrick for donating a ton of songs to Lynn. Seriously, way to save my butt. I <3 all the new music and especially the ludo songs, Mr. Brightside, and Missed Me. MUCHO GRACIAS SENORITA MOLLY. TU MUY BONITA.

Now I'm going to eat a granola bar and listen to Mr. Brightside :D

Clubbing it up?

I am gonna get back into blogging. So what's been up with me?

Lately I've been contemplating my club activities. You know? Its like don't get me wrong, I love all of the clubs, but sometimes its really stressful being in four clubs that need constant attention. No matter what, GSA is my number one because I've never had a closer group of friends and people who I really have a strong connection to then those people. Honestly. Its amazing that the 10 or less of us can come together and make such big things happen around the school. It is literally is incredible. Chorus is also incredible, and it makes me feel good about myself and my activities. Anime Club is really fun, and I do have a lot of friends there. It honestly is a great group of kids all sharing similiar interests. And then...we have drama. Now here's the thing. You know how people say that "Women, what is it about them? Can't live with or without them" Well here's the thing. That is how drama is for me. Because I cannot stand being there with all these people, but at the same time, it gives me great happiness. Its also that every freaking day I have to go there and work my ass off to appease Nancy Lemoine. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy it.. but its difficult to deal with.

So next year I may be dumping drama for good, because honestly I need my Thursdays and Fridays for GSA and Anime.

So right?!?! Prom. Oh wow Prom. There is nothing that excites me more than getting all dressed up, dancing the night away, and hanging out with amazing people. Unfortunatley, I may no longer be going. My parents are not too keen with me spending the night unattended with Douglas, and it just so happens that I recently gave them all of my money to borrow, and so I couldn't buy my own ticket if I wanted to.

Ai ai ai...

I really need to go...I really want to. I think it will be a wonderful night with Doug, Joe, Jamie, etc etc etc.

*prays that my mom will let me go*

Lights off.

I cannot sleep.

But the Host is so good <3

*is definitely going to be obsessed*

I don't think I'll sleep, but instead I'll stay up for four more hours, shower, read, and come back here.

Also scrubs is keeping me entertained. <3

And I hope its only in my mind.

I'm sorry.
To both of you.
Now please. For my sake
Even if its for his sake or her sake.
Just tell me what an asshole I am.

It wasn't anybody's fault but my own. No no dears, I didn't plan this out. I actually did nothing of the sort. I'm sorry for what I did now please. Please before I scream just please...
Seriously guise.
I love you
But if it was you on socialmoth....
Just please give me an explanation.


Many thanks.