Stress

Everybody seems to just have tons of stress these days. I don't know why people choose to inflict it onto themselves or others. But they do it. I keep having these irrational dreams where its something that would've been normal a few months ago. But now...its driving me up a wall. I cannot tolerate this silence anymore. So if everyone else is going to suffer or cry in silence, I'll be the one to stand up.

Even though you don't read my blog anymore...I'm sorry. Okay? I never meant to hurt you the way I did...but you have to understand where I'm coming from and how hurt I am. You did tell me that it would suck for you. But you promised me that we'd be friends, you sent me countless messages declaring how you needed me somewhere in your life and now...you just threw it all away. I understand why you're so mad...but is that a reason to lose everything we had? All the laughs? I'm not saying "Let's be best friends again and go everywhere together and blah blah blah" No. I'm saying lets be on civil terms so then we don't have this extreme hatred of the other. So I'm not afraid to go near you when we're in public or if at a chorus concert I want to talk to the same people you're talking to. But no. I cannot do that because of this problem. Its getting crazy.

I have to go.